Happy 26th birthday to me. Today I'm in no no mood of writing paragraphs, just a calm day, peaceful thoughts, a mind free from overthinking , worrying and regretting, just me and God .
It's hard to turn to another page when you know your favourite character is not going to be in the next chapter. That's what makes reading abit troublesome. I selected the book thinking it was a comedy, it was my first book to ever read. Finally I had embraced reading. Everyone told me it was the best thing to do, but my fear wasn't exactly reading. I didn't know which exact book to choose. The rule was simple,one book at a time. What if I choose a tragedy? I was never prepared for the turnover of events midway. What if I fail to finish the book, and then I have to constantly wonder what happened next. And finally I did it. I randomly picked the best book from the shelf. It had a beautiful cover. I felt that it's the one I had always wanted to read first, even from childhood. Off we go, the first chapters were the best, fell in love with one of the characters. It was the best book, day and night reading out loud. And one beautiful day my worries came true. Wait, ...
Just shortly after having lost hope, you surfaced in my life. You brought hope back to an abandoned house, just like a tree planted by the riverside. You rekindled the ray of happiness in my heart. You made me forget all those that were holding me back My heart rejoiced with ecstasy My lips smiled endlessly Thinking about you was refreshing like taking ice cold water. You made me forget those who intentionally played with my heart, and broke it into pieces. Waiting for the day, when I'll finally look straight into your eyes, and tell you, "I love you." And I'm imagining the happiness in my heart as you reply, that you love me too.
I know we suddenly stopped talking with each other and I stopped chasing you and we became strangers. To tell the truth, I'm beginning to accept that it's what it is. There are some things that we can't force to happen just to make it happen, even though I desperately wanted this to work even once for my genuine love would be reciprocated. I already knew in the first place that it would end up like this if I took the risk, but I'm still thankful for the lessons I've learned not only in love; but also in life. Loving you made me feel my worth. You are the reason I can open my heart again enough to express how grateful I am. Having those conversations that we had made me feel comfortable with you, it's like we had the same vibe. Thank you for making me happy and opening my heart and taking a risk. You showed me a lot of things. Hoping the best for you and I'll see you around.
I love you so I'm gonna let you go I'm gonna let your heart go and find whom it loves I'm gonna let go of the things I held about us all the plans that we had all the fun we fantasized about im gonna put everything at a halt I wanted a forever with you but our forever had an expiry date because I love you I'm gonna say goodbye to everything I thought we could be. I promise not to forget to mention your name in my prayers I'll make sure I say your name in a room full of opportunities. all because you made me grow Praise
😢😢😢
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